Anyone who knows me well knows I don't sit still well. I feel like this has been a pretty major problem in the last fifteen months specifically....both physically and spiritually. My mentality in everything I do is to do it my best, and to do it like everyone else....to excel past everyone's expectations for me. I want to be at the optimal level of activity that I still can be, for as long as I can. Because at some point, some vague point in time, I won't be able to anymore. Even in the past couple months I've notice significant loss. (I blogged about it here if you need a refresher) And the last 3 surgeries that I've had in the past year have led to a combined time of about 6.5 months of non-weight bearing time. Major suckage. When I tell some people that I'm on bedrest or what not, or am not allowed to get up, the most common response I get is "I wish I had the excuse to not do anything" or "I'd love to have people wait on me"....which I guess makes sense, but frankly makes me really frustrated. I would give anything to have a body that isn't failing, and so many people take it for granted...anyways, another subject for possibly another time.
But when I am forced to do nothing but sit around I go nuts!! I hate being told I can't do anything. I get restless. Even some days I just get this crazy feeling of not being able to sit still and have to go something, whether it's go grocery shopping or just taking a random drive...just SOMETHING. I get restless. Just like now, I was studying for my midterm, then suddenly found myself scanning for new music and now I'm blogging. I don't think I can ever just do one thing at once. I get restless. A lot of people know I often don't sleep very well. I toss and turn most of the night, and often can't sleep because I can't turn my brain off. It's restless.
I feel like this constant restlessness also translates into my spiritual life, in ways I'm sure of, and some I'm not entirely sure how. I know that my constant restlessness in life needs to be taken to Christ. It's sort of like my last post, and a continuation of that in a way. We're called to take our burdens and worries to Him....including restlessness. I need to find my rest in Him. I have no choice but to find my strength in Him, because I literally can't count on myself to be strong physically, or emotionally for that matter...without His strength I couldn't get through a day. Or an hour. Down to seconds. It's becoming more and more prevalent that I'm being forced to find my rest in Him as well, because I sure as heck can't find it on my own.
Another potential factor of spiritual restlessness could in fact be positive. Really just a thought to throw out there. Could there be a good restless? One of the definitions is being ceaselessly moving and active....isn't that how our walk should be? We're called to never be complacent in our spiritual walk, to always be growing and becoming closer to Him. So do I consistently have that type of restlessness? Something to strive for, for sure.
Here's a song that was sung in church on Sunday that is currently really hitting home. Perhaps it strikes a chord with you as well.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xneqXUuH6U0
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Counter Intuitive.
Hello! Long time no talk. So much has happened in the new year since I last blogged, but at the same time it doesn't seem like a lot has. Seems like the theme of contradictions is covering this post more than I thought. Brief summary of the past 2 months: I had surgery January 6, and it went well! As probably should have been expected, though I gave my all to fight it, my recovery lasted longer than I wanted to. I ended up staying at my house for the first week of classes, and my mom got to be a student for a week and drive me and take me to each class, and one of my best friends was kind enough to make sure I got to all the KXA rush events. Speaking of KXA, we have since had rush, and have 34 new members!!! I have 2 grandlittles!!! (when did I get so old?!) and SING starts this weekend! So that pretty much brings me back to right now...
I tend to be a major ball of stress most of the time...but I feel like the past couple weeks have been way past my normal level of stress. And I feel like tonight at KXA meeting, with the devo from our chaplain, that I just feel really convicted about it. In the past couple weeks I have hit my breaking point several times, and thanks to the help of an AMAZING person in my life, I was called out on trying to handle it myself. And tonight, I was called out again for doing it myself. But when you think about it....it's counter intuitive.
I have a direct line to a God who is bigger than anything. Bigger than all the troubles and burdens of EVERY SINGLE PERSON EVER. Even those who haven't even been born yet! And so many times in His Word He comes right out and asks for me to give him my burdens. To cast all my anxieties on Him, so that I don't have to hold them myself. I'm being asked to give away my cares and be completely burdenless and carefree....but I CHOOSE not to. I CHOOSE to keep it all to myself and have this enormous weight on me all the time. Why?! Why is it SO hard to let go?!
I suck at surrendering. I have this crazy idea in my head that if I am vulnerable enough to tell someone that I'm struggling and have to take off my brave face, it will be seen as a weakness. I already have enough weakness that I can't control, so why would I add to it with emotional weakness? Yet here I am spilling my guts out (to some extent) for whoever decides to read this.
Yet another thing I'm being convicted of right now is yet another thing that seems counter intuitive to me, and I can't even place a name for it. I lately have gotten incredibly frustrated, yet again, with people around me in relation to my circumstances. I have to fight so hard everyday, and have to fight to get the same opportunities that everyone else automatically gets...and it just makes me mad sometimes. Not just because I have to fight, which gets so unbelievably tiring, but because others complain so much and don't seem to understand that I and others like me would give ANYTHING to get the chance to do what they're merely settling to do. But at the same time, no matter how much right I think I have to be frustrated, or how understandable it is....am I wasting what time I do have on being angry? At least for now, I should be enjoying what abilities I do have, instead of being angry about what I've already lost. I don't even know if that makes sense. I don't really think it makes sense in my head either. As strange as it sounds, it's almost easier to be frustrated and angry then it is to be happy and excited when it comes to my MD. But I guess that just shows which path I should go down ( and want to go down!) because most of the time the right thing isn't easy.
Sorry if that is so jumbled and doesn't make sense. But that's what is going through my brain and heart right now...well, that's the short version. God is going to use these frustrations to fuel me in some other way...I just wish I knew when and where...in the mean time I am going to try to surrender and not handle the burden alone.
I tend to be a major ball of stress most of the time...but I feel like the past couple weeks have been way past my normal level of stress. And I feel like tonight at KXA meeting, with the devo from our chaplain, that I just feel really convicted about it. In the past couple weeks I have hit my breaking point several times, and thanks to the help of an AMAZING person in my life, I was called out on trying to handle it myself. And tonight, I was called out again for doing it myself. But when you think about it....it's counter intuitive.
I have a direct line to a God who is bigger than anything. Bigger than all the troubles and burdens of EVERY SINGLE PERSON EVER. Even those who haven't even been born yet! And so many times in His Word He comes right out and asks for me to give him my burdens. To cast all my anxieties on Him, so that I don't have to hold them myself. I'm being asked to give away my cares and be completely burdenless and carefree....but I CHOOSE not to. I CHOOSE to keep it all to myself and have this enormous weight on me all the time. Why?! Why is it SO hard to let go?!
I suck at surrendering. I have this crazy idea in my head that if I am vulnerable enough to tell someone that I'm struggling and have to take off my brave face, it will be seen as a weakness. I already have enough weakness that I can't control, so why would I add to it with emotional weakness? Yet here I am spilling my guts out (to some extent) for whoever decides to read this.
Yet another thing I'm being convicted of right now is yet another thing that seems counter intuitive to me, and I can't even place a name for it. I lately have gotten incredibly frustrated, yet again, with people around me in relation to my circumstances. I have to fight so hard everyday, and have to fight to get the same opportunities that everyone else automatically gets...and it just makes me mad sometimes. Not just because I have to fight, which gets so unbelievably tiring, but because others complain so much and don't seem to understand that I and others like me would give ANYTHING to get the chance to do what they're merely settling to do. But at the same time, no matter how much right I think I have to be frustrated, or how understandable it is....am I wasting what time I do have on being angry? At least for now, I should be enjoying what abilities I do have, instead of being angry about what I've already lost. I don't even know if that makes sense. I don't really think it makes sense in my head either. As strange as it sounds, it's almost easier to be frustrated and angry then it is to be happy and excited when it comes to my MD. But I guess that just shows which path I should go down ( and want to go down!) because most of the time the right thing isn't easy.
Sorry if that is so jumbled and doesn't make sense. But that's what is going through my brain and heart right now...well, that's the short version. God is going to use these frustrations to fuel me in some other way...I just wish I knew when and where...in the mean time I am going to try to surrender and not handle the burden alone.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
2010!
As is my tradition, here is a list of the things I found most memorable in 2010. Any additions are welcome :)
Having surgery
Taking the semester off because of said surgery
Haiti earthquake
Getting THE coolest little ever!
Starting a blog
The healthcare craziness in Congress
Having the worst semi formal ever
Tyler coming home to visit
One year anniversary of my grandmother passing
Surgery again
Infection from said surgery
BP oil spill
Getting my first job
Turning 21
Going to New York!
Having to quit my first job
Tyler coming home for Christmas
Baylor going to a bowl game!!
I feel like this year has been an INSANE year of change. My world physically has been turned upside down, my life plans have come crashing down and have had to be rebuilt, and I feel like I have lost many friendships. Maybe not lost in all cases, but severely distorted or changed so that they will never be the same. I never expected anything that happened this year to happen, yet it did. So what is to come in 2011? Only one way to find out...
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Rough.
Today was a rough day to say the least.
I've been having EXTREME pain in my foot from the most recent surgery, where my staples are. They have been giving me so much trouble, but hopefully soon these days are coming to an end. On January 6, I'm going to have surgery to remove them. It shouldn't be a big ordeal, especially after how major these last two were. And I start school four days later, so I don't have time for to be a big deal! Haha. But it's just an outpatient surgery and they're just taking out the staples, and making sure that I don't have tendonitis as well.
I knew that would happen, and it's what I want so I'm not in excruciating pain....and I knew this next part would come eventually, I just didn't think it was this soon.
I'm still processing all that happened today. So most of this is just going to be medical facts, and not my personal take on it....because I don't really have one yet. Well, I do...but it's pretty unstable at this point. Anyways, so I've been having trouble the last month or so with my gait changing and wondering why that's happening. Also my foot has begun to turn back in (one of the things the last surgery fixed) which made me believe for a while that the surgery didn't work...(but it did). This has lead to a pretty fast degression of how I walk, and we went in today for a semi-urgent appointment for this issue as well as the pain. Basically what he said is that one of the key tendons that keeps your foot in a straight position has gone out which is why it's deformng again. That as well as decreased quad muscles has led to my walk being different, and there's nothing to be done about it. This is just my CMT/whatever I have progressing, and once my muscles are gone, they're gone.
So the plan as of now is to get a brace to wear basically all the time to help put my foot in the right spot so I can walk longer. And he said that the more it atrophies, the more I'm going to need assistance devices. AKA My worst nightmare and what I've been scared of my whole life. I already use a wheelchair super part time, but as time goes on this will be more often. But with my condition there's no definitive timeline, so it's sort of a wait and see type of thing. So for all I know nothing will change for years! Here's hoping.
There really isn't much else to say at this point. That's where I am physically, and am still working on the emotionally and mentally part. It's rough. That's really all I can say at this point. Not sure if anyone even reads this anymore, especially since it's been so long since my last update. But there it is.
I've been having EXTREME pain in my foot from the most recent surgery, where my staples are. They have been giving me so much trouble, but hopefully soon these days are coming to an end. On January 6, I'm going to have surgery to remove them. It shouldn't be a big ordeal, especially after how major these last two were. And I start school four days later, so I don't have time for to be a big deal! Haha. But it's just an outpatient surgery and they're just taking out the staples, and making sure that I don't have tendonitis as well.
I knew that would happen, and it's what I want so I'm not in excruciating pain....and I knew this next part would come eventually, I just didn't think it was this soon.
I'm still processing all that happened today. So most of this is just going to be medical facts, and not my personal take on it....because I don't really have one yet. Well, I do...but it's pretty unstable at this point. Anyways, so I've been having trouble the last month or so with my gait changing and wondering why that's happening. Also my foot has begun to turn back in (one of the things the last surgery fixed) which made me believe for a while that the surgery didn't work...(but it did). This has lead to a pretty fast degression of how I walk, and we went in today for a semi-urgent appointment for this issue as well as the pain. Basically what he said is that one of the key tendons that keeps your foot in a straight position has gone out which is why it's deformng again. That as well as decreased quad muscles has led to my walk being different, and there's nothing to be done about it. This is just my CMT/whatever I have progressing, and once my muscles are gone, they're gone.
So the plan as of now is to get a brace to wear basically all the time to help put my foot in the right spot so I can walk longer. And he said that the more it atrophies, the more I'm going to need assistance devices. AKA My worst nightmare and what I've been scared of my whole life. I already use a wheelchair super part time, but as time goes on this will be more often. But with my condition there's no definitive timeline, so it's sort of a wait and see type of thing. So for all I know nothing will change for years! Here's hoping.
There really isn't much else to say at this point. That's where I am physically, and am still working on the emotionally and mentally part. It's rough. That's really all I can say at this point. Not sure if anyone even reads this anymore, especially since it's been so long since my last update. But there it is.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Happy Birthday Vertical!!!
Today is a great day.
This day last year one of the greatest things of my time at Baylor happened for the first time: Vertical.
If you've read my blog for any span of time, chances are you've read about Vertical and how much I love it. I'm one of the biggest advocates ever and absolutely LOVE it and have been SO blessed this past year to have it as part of my life every week.
A year ago God started something big on Baylor's campus, that started in the hearts of several students. This time is for students to get together and worship, and just revel in the Word. It is such a refreshing way to start my week, and now my week feels really incomplete without it.
Not only do I love the fellowship and learning I get every week but I love everything it stands behind. EVERY week Afshin is so intentional about saying that Vertical is NOT to take the place of church, and if it's between going to Vertical or church on Sundays, they'd rather you not come to Vertical. It's just like an extra supplement to kick off your week with the right attitude.
I LOVE, LOVE Vertical and if you haven't gone...you need to!
This day last year one of the greatest things of my time at Baylor happened for the first time: Vertical.
If you've read my blog for any span of time, chances are you've read about Vertical and how much I love it. I'm one of the biggest advocates ever and absolutely LOVE it and have been SO blessed this past year to have it as part of my life every week.
A year ago God started something big on Baylor's campus, that started in the hearts of several students. This time is for students to get together and worship, and just revel in the Word. It is such a refreshing way to start my week, and now my week feels really incomplete without it.
Not only do I love the fellowship and learning I get every week but I love everything it stands behind. EVERY week Afshin is so intentional about saying that Vertical is NOT to take the place of church, and if it's between going to Vertical or church on Sundays, they'd rather you not come to Vertical. It's just like an extra supplement to kick off your week with the right attitude.
I LOVE, LOVE Vertical and if you haven't gone...you need to!
Sunday, October 17, 2010
NEW YORK!!
I am back in Texas!
I don't even know where to begin!! This whole weekend has seriously been one of the best ever, and it went way too quickly! And I have about a million other things that still need to get done tonight, so I'll try to make this short. (yeah right)
We left about 5 am Thursday morning, and spent the next 6ish hours traveling. When we got to NYC, we basically just walked around Time Square (where our hotel was), and just got the lay of the land...and some food! Planet Hollywood was one of the first things we found, so we settled for that. We really didn't do too much because we were tired, however....we did find possibly the two greatest stores ever. Right across the street from each other. That's right. The Hershey store and M&M World. Seriously. THREE floors of nothing but M&Ms and M&M paraphanalia! Such greatness! Then it started to rain so we were forced back into our hotel for the evening. But since I was running on an hour of sleep, I was grateful for an early evening. Which in turn was actually a really rough night for me. My muscles do not handle traveling well anymore, and I slept for about an hour or two, and then was awake because I couldn't sleep through the pain that was ALL OVER my body. I just ached all over and couldn't sleep, and even my pain medicine didn't help. Rough night. However, I was in NY....couldn't let it get to me!
The next day we got tickets on the double decker buses that toured Downtown/Midtown/Uptown Manhattan, and Brooklyn. The great thing about this bus was we had tickets for two days, could ride as we pleased and get off and on wherever we wanted! The first day we basically just took the whole tour because we wanted to see everything. We ended up at Staten Island and got on the ferry to go see the Statue of Liberty and Ellis Island!! It was SO cool to see those places/things in person!! Basically that's how the whole trip was...finally being at all these famous places and not having to just look at pictures. (Although now I have my own facebook album of pics, if you're interested!) I was surprised that I didn't take more, but really it was hard on the bus, and at the shows we weren't really allowed to much. After that we headed back to the hotel (the whole tour, depending on the RIDICULOUS traffic took about 3 hours) and got ready for...WICKED!! We ended up being able to walk to the theater because it was relatively close. So that was nice...but cold! It was in the 50s most of the time, and the windchill made it much colder! Wicked was, I don't even know, absolutely incredible!! It was my first Broadway show, and it was one I've wanted to see for years. It was such a great production. And the woman who played Glinda graduated from Sam Houston! Small world. After the show we went to this Irish pub called Charley O's to grab some dinner and I had some of the best ribs I've ever eaten.
Saturday we just did kind of whatever. We rode the bus to a different shopping district and messed around in midtown Manhattan for a while, and then went to the Rockefeller Center, or The Rock. One of the tour guides told us that if we were choosing between the observation decks of the Rock and the Empire State building to pick this one. And it was SO AMAZING!!! It's about 850 feet above the streets, and the only thing separating you from it is a clear, thin wall. SO GREAT!!! My dad was getting really nervous, but mom and I weren't at all even slightly freaked out. It was so awesome!! The view was absolutely INCREDIBLE! Pics are on my facebook if you want to see...and we had the perfect view of the Empire State building, and Central park....the whole city really. We didn't last too long up there just because the wind made it absolutely freezing!! Then we rode back to our hotel and got ready for....Blue Man Group!!!! We had to take a taxi for this show, because it was in Grenwich Village. My first taxi by the way. So much fun! We got there a little early, so we went in a Starbucks a few blocks away to wait...and it was HUGE! By far the biggest Starbucks I've ever seen. I guess it has to be if it's going to be in NY, and right by the Subway. But the performance was SO GREAT! I've wanted to see them for so many years, and it's even more awesome than watching their videos. We were in the second row, part of the "poncho section". The Blue Men had thoughtfully provided us with ponchos as to not ruin our clothes with their various materials that happened to go into the audience. In our case, a few splatters of paint and chewed up Twinkies, and some Cap'N Crunch haha. And I can now officially say that audience participation is terrifying. All 3 of us got picked for various parts of it. Before the show started they lit up our seats and said we would be leading the audience in the Star Spangled Banner...and just as mom started singing they said just kidding. Later one of the blue men started climbing on the seats through the audience...and he thoughtfully stopped on my chair. So hes literally standing on my armrests over my head and I was trying SO hard not to move! I was so scared he was going to fall or if I moved I would knock him off! And everyone was laughing because apparently he was making faces at me. And then towards the end they had those strobe lights that make you look like you're moving really choppy and you can't see swift movements, and one of the blue men magically appeared about an inch from my moms face and just stared at her. She screamed. Haha it was so great. One of the greatest shows, even though it's technically off Broadway.
And today was all traveling, and I unfortunately have a stats test tomorrow that is calling my name. But it was SUCH an amazing experience and I can't wait to go back. I can't decide if I could make it on the streets of New York. I'd love to, but only for a very short time period I think. Oh my gosh, the driving is CRAZY!!! I thought we were going to crash so many times. They don't even have street lines in most of the city, mostly because even if they were there no one would follow them. Cars/Taxis just zoom in and out of lanes like it's nothing. And when they stop they are literally less than an inch away from the one in front!!! So nerve wracking. But they all drive crazy together, so it all works out, right?
That's the crazy cliff note version of my trip, and I'll have more details if you ask. But seriously, LOVED it and had such a great time!
I don't even know where to begin!! This whole weekend has seriously been one of the best ever, and it went way too quickly! And I have about a million other things that still need to get done tonight, so I'll try to make this short. (yeah right)
We left about 5 am Thursday morning, and spent the next 6ish hours traveling. When we got to NYC, we basically just walked around Time Square (where our hotel was), and just got the lay of the land...and some food! Planet Hollywood was one of the first things we found, so we settled for that. We really didn't do too much because we were tired, however....we did find possibly the two greatest stores ever. Right across the street from each other. That's right. The Hershey store and M&M World. Seriously. THREE floors of nothing but M&Ms and M&M paraphanalia! Such greatness! Then it started to rain so we were forced back into our hotel for the evening. But since I was running on an hour of sleep, I was grateful for an early evening. Which in turn was actually a really rough night for me. My muscles do not handle traveling well anymore, and I slept for about an hour or two, and then was awake because I couldn't sleep through the pain that was ALL OVER my body. I just ached all over and couldn't sleep, and even my pain medicine didn't help. Rough night. However, I was in NY....couldn't let it get to me!
The next day we got tickets on the double decker buses that toured Downtown/Midtown/Uptown Manhattan, and Brooklyn. The great thing about this bus was we had tickets for two days, could ride as we pleased and get off and on wherever we wanted! The first day we basically just took the whole tour because we wanted to see everything. We ended up at Staten Island and got on the ferry to go see the Statue of Liberty and Ellis Island!! It was SO cool to see those places/things in person!! Basically that's how the whole trip was...finally being at all these famous places and not having to just look at pictures. (Although now I have my own facebook album of pics, if you're interested!) I was surprised that I didn't take more, but really it was hard on the bus, and at the shows we weren't really allowed to much. After that we headed back to the hotel (the whole tour, depending on the RIDICULOUS traffic took about 3 hours) and got ready for...WICKED!! We ended up being able to walk to the theater because it was relatively close. So that was nice...but cold! It was in the 50s most of the time, and the windchill made it much colder! Wicked was, I don't even know, absolutely incredible!! It was my first Broadway show, and it was one I've wanted to see for years. It was such a great production. And the woman who played Glinda graduated from Sam Houston! Small world. After the show we went to this Irish pub called Charley O's to grab some dinner and I had some of the best ribs I've ever eaten.
Saturday we just did kind of whatever. We rode the bus to a different shopping district and messed around in midtown Manhattan for a while, and then went to the Rockefeller Center, or The Rock. One of the tour guides told us that if we were choosing between the observation decks of the Rock and the Empire State building to pick this one. And it was SO AMAZING!!! It's about 850 feet above the streets, and the only thing separating you from it is a clear, thin wall. SO GREAT!!! My dad was getting really nervous, but mom and I weren't at all even slightly freaked out. It was so awesome!! The view was absolutely INCREDIBLE! Pics are on my facebook if you want to see...and we had the perfect view of the Empire State building, and Central park....the whole city really. We didn't last too long up there just because the wind made it absolutely freezing!! Then we rode back to our hotel and got ready for....Blue Man Group!!!! We had to take a taxi for this show, because it was in Grenwich Village. My first taxi by the way. So much fun! We got there a little early, so we went in a Starbucks a few blocks away to wait...and it was HUGE! By far the biggest Starbucks I've ever seen. I guess it has to be if it's going to be in NY, and right by the Subway. But the performance was SO GREAT! I've wanted to see them for so many years, and it's even more awesome than watching their videos. We were in the second row, part of the "poncho section". The Blue Men had thoughtfully provided us with ponchos as to not ruin our clothes with their various materials that happened to go into the audience. In our case, a few splatters of paint and chewed up Twinkies, and some Cap'N Crunch haha. And I can now officially say that audience participation is terrifying. All 3 of us got picked for various parts of it. Before the show started they lit up our seats and said we would be leading the audience in the Star Spangled Banner...and just as mom started singing they said just kidding. Later one of the blue men started climbing on the seats through the audience...and he thoughtfully stopped on my chair. So hes literally standing on my armrests over my head and I was trying SO hard not to move! I was so scared he was going to fall or if I moved I would knock him off! And everyone was laughing because apparently he was making faces at me. And then towards the end they had those strobe lights that make you look like you're moving really choppy and you can't see swift movements, and one of the blue men magically appeared about an inch from my moms face and just stared at her. She screamed. Haha it was so great. One of the greatest shows, even though it's technically off Broadway.
And today was all traveling, and I unfortunately have a stats test tomorrow that is calling my name. But it was SUCH an amazing experience and I can't wait to go back. I can't decide if I could make it on the streets of New York. I'd love to, but only for a very short time period I think. Oh my gosh, the driving is CRAZY!!! I thought we were going to crash so many times. They don't even have street lines in most of the city, mostly because even if they were there no one would follow them. Cars/Taxis just zoom in and out of lanes like it's nothing. And when they stop they are literally less than an inch away from the one in front!!! So nerve wracking. But they all drive crazy together, so it all works out, right?
That's the crazy cliff note version of my trip, and I'll have more details if you ask. But seriously, LOVED it and had such a great time!
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
KXA
Nothing too exciting has been happening, but next weekend after my trip to NY I will have PLENTY to blog about I'm sure!! I am SO excited!!!
I can't remember if I've talked about this explicitly, or just implied it in previous posts, but I'm in KXA, a Christian sorority. Last night we had our monthly Dress & Pin meeting which is just a fancy way of saying that we all dress up that day, and have a mini worship service before our normal meeting. I absolutely love those times with all my sisters...there's just something so amazing about worshipping with people you see on campus all the time.
We had a few alumni come back and talk to us about how KXA affected their time at Baylor in retrospect, and it really made me realize even more how incredibly blessed I am to be in this sisterhood. Never again am I going to get this opportunity. To be in such close sisterhood with all these incredible women who have the same beliefs I do.
Thinking back, besides the fall of my freshman year, I don't have a member at Baylor that doesn't include KXA. I wouldn't have some of my closest friends or my roommate without KXA...and I wouldn't have grown as much spiritually as I have without them either. It's no surprise that the past year has been one of the hardest, if not THE hardest, in my life...and without them I could not have gotten through it. They have been SUCH an encouragement to me and never cease to make me smile. They are always there for me when I need to vent, or laugh, or cry...or just a study buddy to make the grossness of homework go by faster.
These girls have challenged me in my faith, encouraged me when I was down, and celebrating my victories with me as if they were their own. That's not something you find everyday! I am constantly surrounded by Godly women who I will have in my life forever.
I love every single of one those girls so much, and would be lost without them. Being in KXA is one of the best decisions I have ever made...and I really hope that you have some sort of fellowship like this. Because it's indescribably amazing.
I can't remember if I've talked about this explicitly, or just implied it in previous posts, but I'm in KXA, a Christian sorority. Last night we had our monthly Dress & Pin meeting which is just a fancy way of saying that we all dress up that day, and have a mini worship service before our normal meeting. I absolutely love those times with all my sisters...there's just something so amazing about worshipping with people you see on campus all the time.
We had a few alumni come back and talk to us about how KXA affected their time at Baylor in retrospect, and it really made me realize even more how incredibly blessed I am to be in this sisterhood. Never again am I going to get this opportunity. To be in such close sisterhood with all these incredible women who have the same beliefs I do.
Thinking back, besides the fall of my freshman year, I don't have a member at Baylor that doesn't include KXA. I wouldn't have some of my closest friends or my roommate without KXA...and I wouldn't have grown as much spiritually as I have without them either. It's no surprise that the past year has been one of the hardest, if not THE hardest, in my life...and without them I could not have gotten through it. They have been SUCH an encouragement to me and never cease to make me smile. They are always there for me when I need to vent, or laugh, or cry...or just a study buddy to make the grossness of homework go by faster.
These girls have challenged me in my faith, encouraged me when I was down, and celebrating my victories with me as if they were their own. That's not something you find everyday! I am constantly surrounded by Godly women who I will have in my life forever.
I love every single of one those girls so much, and would be lost without them. Being in KXA is one of the best decisions I have ever made...and I really hope that you have some sort of fellowship like this. Because it's indescribably amazing.
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