Bringin' it back.

Tonight was my first Vertical of the semester. AKA my favorite time of the week!!!


Tonight was simply amazing. And really just refreshing. I'm starting to think back on my college years (being senior year and all..yay!) and I have seen quite a pattern of God just completely shattering my plans. Not just slightly chipping away little bits, or modifying them...completely shattering them. And I'm continually learning and realizing that I am not in control. And this semester is apparently going to be no different. The past couple weeks I have discovered and been attempting to deal with a situation that is SO completely over my head. I have no idea how to deal. The past couple weeks I've just been feeling really down, and allowing Satan to get the best of my complete loss of what to do, to make me feel like I am just drowning in this situation. I don't know what to do, what to say, how to act, how to deal, how it changes things. It's just an issue that is so much bigger than I am, or ever will be.

But tonight I got to take a step back from it. I was given the opportunity to step away from that, and my stresses with school, and everything else going on in this crazy thing we call life, and just bring it back to where it needs to be. Me and God.

Tonight at Vertical during worship I just allowed myself to be completely engulfed in it. Forget everything around me, everything going on, and just run into God's arms and be comforted and filled with His peace. All the songs were about God being stronger than anything, and if He is for us what in the world could be against us. And we ended the night with On Christ the Solid Rock I Stand. It was like the whole evening was designed and tailored for the message I needed to hear most.

I may not be able to handle or comprehend the current situation, or really anything that comes my way in life. But God can. He is SO. MUCH. BIGGER. A message that sounds really simple, and super easy to say...but hard to truly live. As much as I love having control, I am constantly being convicted to let go, and let God.

So tonight was renewal for me. It was refreshment and being put back in my place and knowing that this situation is, and always has been, in His hands. I don't have to know what to do, or how to act. I just need to put all my trust in Him, and let Him do it for me.

I'm bringin' it back.