You know what infection are? Zero fun.
If you read my update note on facebook, you know last night I had to go to the ER because of my hip incision being infected. They numbed up the site and got a lot of the fluid out (A TON). It feels a little better today, but I'm still in a ton of pain. We have to clean it about 3 times a day and change the dressing, and it looks horrible. But I'm definitely not out of the woods yet, because I think it's starting to get worse actually.
I think Tuesday I'm going to see my doctor and he's going to take a look at it. (Of course he's out of town this weekend so he doesn't know any of this is going on). And worst case scenario if they aren't pleased with what's going on then there's a possibility of having surgery on Thursday to get in there and really clean it out. So we'll see what happens.
Really that's all that's going on with me. But infections are really serious, especially with my compromised immune system....so I'm praying this works. I'm taking an antibiotic and it's the size of a horse pill...it's HUGE! The pain is slightly less from last night, so that's good. But I still can't move at all without searing pain...so that's getting really frustrating.
***Disclaimer: If you don't like medical talk, or get queasy, skip this paragraph***
Tomorrow we have to take out the packing in my hip. There's basically like a shoestring in the incision he cut last night, and it needs to be changed. So yes, my incision is open which is a really strange feeling and doesn't make me feel that good either. That's going to be absolutely torturous to take out, and then my mom has to put new packing in it. UGH. Not looking forward to that.
Alrighty friends, talk to you later!
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Sunshine.
Today, for the first time in quite some time, I got to go outside. The only times I've been out since my surgery have been to go to the doctor, but that's just going from the car to a building and back...not really enjoying being outside.
But today! Today I got to go out on our courtyard and just sit in the sun and it was absolutely fabulous! I forgot how amazing it feels to just be bathed in the warmth of a sunny day. It's so easy to take for granted something as simple as the sunshine, but I never will again. :)
Hope you're enjoying your summer!
"This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it!" Psalm 118:24
But today! Today I got to go out on our courtyard and just sit in the sun and it was absolutely fabulous! I forgot how amazing it feels to just be bathed in the warmth of a sunny day. It's so easy to take for granted something as simple as the sunshine, but I never will again. :)
Hope you're enjoying your summer!
"This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it!" Psalm 118:24
Sunday, May 23, 2010
The End.
Well, after six incredible seasons and a two and a half hour finale...LOST is over. It's really crazy the international following it has. Even the cast is from all over the world!
I was talking to my best friend tonight, a fellow LOST watcher, tonight as we were watching the 2 hr review with the cast and writers putting in their input, and I was telling her how jealous I was of those writers. I mean I was I had that kind of brain to come up with this incredible show that has so many twists and turns. I mean every single episode I had a least one moment where my jaw literally dropped. It never got old! Such a brillant show, just plain brillant!
AH! I just can't explain how much I love this show. I mean, anyone who knows me well knows my slight (ha) obsession with Gilmore Girls. There is never a time when I'm not cycling through all the seasons, and I can quote any scene from any episode...it's rather sad, I must admit. Yet, I think LOST beats GG! The plot, storyline, attention getting ability of LOST is something that I've never experienced with any other show, and I feel like it will be hard to beat. It's just brillant! I wish there was a better word, but that pretty much sums it up. Brillant.
I really hope these writers start something else after this, with their crazy awesome writing skills who knows what will happen. If you don't watch LOST, then you definitely need to!!!
I was talking to my best friend tonight, a fellow LOST watcher, tonight as we were watching the 2 hr review with the cast and writers putting in their input, and I was telling her how jealous I was of those writers. I mean I was I had that kind of brain to come up with this incredible show that has so many twists and turns. I mean every single episode I had a least one moment where my jaw literally dropped. It never got old! Such a brillant show, just plain brillant!
AH! I just can't explain how much I love this show. I mean, anyone who knows me well knows my slight (ha) obsession with Gilmore Girls. There is never a time when I'm not cycling through all the seasons, and I can quote any scene from any episode...it's rather sad, I must admit. Yet, I think LOST beats GG! The plot, storyline, attention getting ability of LOST is something that I've never experienced with any other show, and I feel like it will be hard to beat. It's just brillant! I wish there was a better word, but that pretty much sums it up. Brillant.
I really hope these writers start something else after this, with their crazy awesome writing skills who knows what will happen. If you don't watch LOST, then you definitely need to!!!
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Update.
Hello world!
I am blogging from my couch! I am now 4 days out of surgery and hanging in there. Being in the hospital for initial pain management was SOOO much better than doing it outpatient like we did last time. The doctor said everything went well and he's really happy with how it went. Now I just have to get through the recovery. I'm still in quite a bit of pain and am still trying to control it, but I'm doing ok overall.
I go back in 2 weeks to get the stitches taken out of my hip and get a cast on instead of my splint, so that's going to be a rough day but it's an important milestone in the process.
I can't thank y'all enough for all the prayers and support. And if you have any anti-boredom ideas I def am listening!! Love y'all!!
I am blogging from my couch! I am now 4 days out of surgery and hanging in there. Being in the hospital for initial pain management was SOOO much better than doing it outpatient like we did last time. The doctor said everything went well and he's really happy with how it went. Now I just have to get through the recovery. I'm still in quite a bit of pain and am still trying to control it, but I'm doing ok overall.
I go back in 2 weeks to get the stitches taken out of my hip and get a cast on instead of my splint, so that's going to be a rough day but it's an important milestone in the process.
I can't thank y'all enough for all the prayers and support. And if you have any anti-boredom ideas I def am listening!! Love y'all!!
Friday, May 7, 2010
Long time no blog!
It's been forever since I last wrote! For the past couple weeks I've actually been busy, which has been such a nice change of pace!
This past weekend I got the chance to go to Houston, which was SO much fun! My main purpose was to attend the FUMC Grad banquet, but along the way I got to see a lot of friends that I haven't seen in SO long, years in some cases! It was so amazing getting the chance to catch up with everyone. I can't believe my gangsters are graduating!! Time flies by so quickly.
The semester is coming to a close, and it's so strange to not have finals or spend all my waking hours studying...wish I was though, as strange as that sounds. But next semester I'll be back! My surgery is now only 4 days away, and I'm now being faced with the reality of the situation and am being presented with all the feelings I've been repressing for all this time. But the Vertical lesson Afshin taught a couple weeks ago helped a lot, so now I will share it with you, in the hopes that it will help you wherever you are.
John 11:1-6,12-44
I Am the Ressurection and the Life
In verse 4 Jesus says that Lazarus' sickness will not end in death, but it is so that the Lord can be glorified through it. That gives me great comfort in a way, that although I have to deal with extra things everyday, that but God will somehow be glorified through it. I am just a small piece of the bigger picture that will lead to His glory. He's just doing something bigger than I can see.
I think it's really easy a lot of times during hard times to blame God. I've heard several times from non-Christians that one reason they don't believe is because if God is so loving, why does He allow bad things to happen to good people? And as Christians, I think a recurring thought process during these trials is "Why doesn't He love me enough to make this go away?" When in reality He does love us, so, so much even in the midst of hard times.
So, let's look at it...
Why doesn't He take me out of this immediately?
God doesn't work on my time table.
Why is God loving when He holds back?
If life were easy, we'd have no need for Him...and when we live for Him our lives have meaning because He is glorified and we are fulfilling our purpose.
When I go through hard times, God is allowing me to be a part of His glory.
Going through trials increases our faith
An interesting thing Afshin said that I never knew before was when he was talking about verse 33 it says that Jesus is "deeply moved" by his friend's death. Afshin said that this word they use several times in the New Testament, but it is always in a different connotation. It's used always in agitation, or when Jesus is scolding someone...yet it's used here, after his friend has died. Why is Jesus so angry? The text says after that, that his spirit was troubled. He's angry that his friend has died and that death is a part of our lives. We weren't meant to be on this Earth to eventually die, death came as a result of sin. In the garden God said if they ate from the tree
they would surely die. Death came because we veered off from the His perfect plan.
Lazarus went through a huge trial, and because of how God was glorified through the circumstances, more people followed Christ. So through your trials in life, you never know how God is going to be glorified.
It is so easy to read those verses and remember how Afshin described God's glory in these awful situations and say that I will live my life like that. But do I? Do I wake up every morning and trust that no matter what bad things are happening in my life, that God will make it worth it? As my surgery comes closer and closer, it's really easy for me to get anxious and scared about the pain that is about to come, and the long recovery time. But I know that God will be glorified through these trials in my life, and I will come out on the other side stronger and more grounded in my faith....if I allow Him to move in me.
Are you letting Him work through your trials??
This past weekend I got the chance to go to Houston, which was SO much fun! My main purpose was to attend the FUMC Grad banquet, but along the way I got to see a lot of friends that I haven't seen in SO long, years in some cases! It was so amazing getting the chance to catch up with everyone. I can't believe my gangsters are graduating!! Time flies by so quickly.
The semester is coming to a close, and it's so strange to not have finals or spend all my waking hours studying...wish I was though, as strange as that sounds. But next semester I'll be back! My surgery is now only 4 days away, and I'm now being faced with the reality of the situation and am being presented with all the feelings I've been repressing for all this time. But the Vertical lesson Afshin taught a couple weeks ago helped a lot, so now I will share it with you, in the hopes that it will help you wherever you are.
John 11:1-6,12-44
I Am the Ressurection and the Life
In verse 4 Jesus says that Lazarus' sickness will not end in death, but it is so that the Lord can be glorified through it. That gives me great comfort in a way, that although I have to deal with extra things everyday, that but God will somehow be glorified through it. I am just a small piece of the bigger picture that will lead to His glory. He's just doing something bigger than I can see.
I think it's really easy a lot of times during hard times to blame God. I've heard several times from non-Christians that one reason they don't believe is because if God is so loving, why does He allow bad things to happen to good people? And as Christians, I think a recurring thought process during these trials is "Why doesn't He love me enough to make this go away?" When in reality He does love us, so, so much even in the midst of hard times.
So, let's look at it...
Why doesn't He take me out of this immediately?
God doesn't work on my time table.
Why is God loving when He holds back?
If life were easy, we'd have no need for Him...and when we live for Him our lives have meaning because He is glorified and we are fulfilling our purpose.
When I go through hard times, God is allowing me to be a part of His glory.
Going through trials increases our faith
An interesting thing Afshin said that I never knew before was when he was talking about verse 33 it says that Jesus is "deeply moved" by his friend's death. Afshin said that this word they use several times in the New Testament, but it is always in a different connotation. It's used always in agitation, or when Jesus is scolding someone...yet it's used here, after his friend has died. Why is Jesus so angry? The text says after that, that his spirit was troubled. He's angry that his friend has died and that death is a part of our lives. We weren't meant to be on this Earth to eventually die, death came as a result of sin. In the garden God said if they ate from the tree
they would surely die. Death came because we veered off from the His perfect plan.
Lazarus went through a huge trial, and because of how God was glorified through the circumstances, more people followed Christ. So through your trials in life, you never know how God is going to be glorified.
It is so easy to read those verses and remember how Afshin described God's glory in these awful situations and say that I will live my life like that. But do I? Do I wake up every morning and trust that no matter what bad things are happening in my life, that God will make it worth it? As my surgery comes closer and closer, it's really easy for me to get anxious and scared about the pain that is about to come, and the long recovery time. But I know that God will be glorified through these trials in my life, and I will come out on the other side stronger and more grounded in my faith....if I allow Him to move in me.
Are you letting Him work through your trials??
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